r/productivity • u/LeTmEgIvEmIlK • 3h ago
Advice Needed how do i be consistent, stop being distracted and actually do things..??
i get random sudden urges to do x or y, and get super invested for like hours (maybe days), and when i stop for like more than 10 minutes, even if reluctantly, I'd lose all interest immediately and refuse to get back to it, even if it were to add like a teensy <<2 minute minor change, and never get back to it for months.
and even amidst this extreme interest to, say a really cool and fascinating podcast, i would still end up pausing ever 20 mins or less to just go off and do something else, like roll around in bed, read some random passage from an unrelated book, watch a 2 min video online that I'll forget etcetc.
if i cant even commit to the things i like, god knows I'm going to fail when it comes to: picking up trash in my room from the floor to the trashbin barely a meter away, doing short essay for boring school subject, fixing the crooked poster that's bothering me above my bed (where i spend most my time.)
sometimes i cant even bring myself to do things I'm excited and really want to do. as if laying in bed staring at the ceiling, berating myself for being mad stupid is a preferable situation. and then have the audacity to go 'wow there's nothing to do, I'm so bored, why is everything so boring?'
like right now, schools about to start, i should be preparing my stuffs, read schedules, see who's in my class. or, yk, study so i can understand the highly complex subject my literal dream career needs me to understand, but nooo if it isn't related to this really cool book i just read and fell in love with, it can just screw right off!! (i have, concerningly, spent 20 hours a day this past week alone just rereading it, and making stuffs dedicated to it.) (im on track to lose interest in 2 more days, as much as i dont want it to be so)
sorry for the bad english and the probably repetitive and obvious question (of which the answer to will probably just be 'lock in', and I'm just too much in denial to accept it, sigh). my future is cooked, how do i expect to have good academics as well as juggle my 8 hobbies or something with a mindset like this.